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THE BEFORE


Anxiety isn't good when you are trying to conceive; first hand experience.
And my anxiety wasn't just from me being disturbed about conceiving but from other factors too. Example: questions being asked, flippant comments and direct confrontations, unsolicited advice.

You might say, only two years and you were worrying yourself to death. Ha! It's was like twenty two years to me. In the span of two years,a lot happened ...it was well.

I was completely worked up. Those that know me in person can testify that I was a slim person but became extremely slim. I became a shadow of myself. I was eating but was not healthy.

I was seriously anxious and worried. So much was said to me.
Pastor Victor and his wife, Pastor Mary,  Aunty Nseabasi Etim , My mum and lots of others were a great source of strength; God bless them for me.

I was doing alot of things like taking of Communion daily, anointing my stomach daily and reading the word concerning the situation. One thing was sure I was doing it wrongly. How?

I did not follow the instruction of Philippians 4:6.

"Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God."

And when I follow through with the above instruction, this happens

Verse 7
"And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."

The Common English Bible says:

" Don’t be anxious about anything; rather, bring up all of your requests to God in your prayers and petitions, along with giving thanks. 
Then the peace of God that exceeds all understanding will keep your hearts and minds safe in Christ Jesus."

I lacked peace of mind. My faith concerning what I was asking was mixed with anxiety and worry.

2nd quarter of 2017, I had enough. Things just had to change. I was doing everything wrong and I had to right that wrong.

What did I do?

Sat myself down and asked Uduakobong certain questions.

1. Will I be happy if I have children or not?

Yes I will but still wish for it.

2. If I stay the next ten years to come and not have a child, will I still face the world?

Yes I will

3. If by this situation, my marriage ends, will my life end?

Nope, my life will still be intact.

4. Is God a liar?

No, He is not

5. He said you are fruitful and that He will grant you conception.

Yes He said so.

6. Then why do you want to do His job for Him? Why are you so worried?

Hmmmm... This ends today.

And it did end.

When I was done with asking myself these questions. I now told God, "if you give me children or not, I will still be yours serving you but one thing is sure no-one will take Your glory in this issue. I will return all to you."

Believe me, I began to relax.
It was like a huge weight was lifted. I began to add weight. Smiled more. Prayed and thanked God more. I was completely transformed. I continued my daily routine with more understanding with a relaxed mind.

God showed up. I got pregnant without even knowing. That period, I was treating malaria and typhoid. I had carried out a home test severally, nothing showed. Not until I went for a blood test and there it was; I was pregnant. What a joy I felt that day. I didn't even know whether I should cry or laugh. all that came out from my mouth was "Thank you Jesus".

Am sharing this to encourage someone not to give up. Your testimony is sure.

Please, it's not every advice you should take. For if you take all, you might end up with something you did not bargain for.

Align everything you want to do with the word of God and your change will come (Job 14:14)

The pregnancy journey and the labour room story (laughing); wait for it.

Be blessed!




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